Rosie's Rose Garden – Life!

Dear Friends:  I don’t have the power to write much today.  It was a bad week.  Monday we took her.  They asked us to leave her for Cat Scan and xrays.  And A Core Biopsy to discover what this lump was all about.  We hated to leave her but we wanted to save her the 2 hour trip back and forth.  She stayed there overnight.  That would have been her last good night.  I hate that she spent it alone there and not with us.  Tuesday they did the test.  I went to pick her up to take her home.  They discovered she had Hermangeosarcoma (spelling?)  a Bleeding type of Cancer tumor on her chest that had engulfed I think 1 or 2 of the small chest bones.  It was on the surface and bleeding inside the tumor.  It was growing as her chest was getting bigger weekly.  They biopsied it to find out this information. Normally a biopsy would stop bleeding and heal.  Her’s continued to bleed as it turned out to be this bad type of cancer that saps up all the platelets in the blood and makes the blood so thin it won’t cougulate and so we took her home not knowing she was bleeding inside.  

Tuesday night she was tired, didn’t realize what was going on.  I thought she was just tired from everything and she’d be okay.  They warned me her chest would be a little black and blue from test,  but it turned bright bloody red her skin on her chest and tummy.  It was filling up with blood this tumor bleed inside her all night.  She was not feeling good.  I immediately called the Hospital and we rushed her up there longest 2 hour trip in our life.  We thought we were going to loose her in the car.  She made it and they took her into emergency right away.  The doctors could not do anything.  The  tumor was inoperable and the blood was not drainable as it was layered and absorbed into muscle and skin inside.  She was in some pain and discomfort and it would increase.  We had no choice but to let her go!  Let her sleep   I can’t believe in such a short time we had to say good bye.  It didn’t seem real, it seemed like a nightmare come to life.!  

They were great at the Vet Hospital, however I can’t stop beating myself up over why I submitted her to the tests that ultimately accelerated her  condition.   The cancer was expanding by itself and by next week or days, it would have been increasingly difficult for her.  There was nothing that could be done.  Operation would have taken the cancer out but they said she would not be able to walk as they’d have to remove the bones that support her one leg!  She’d have to have chemo again.  All the treatments they said she may never leave the Hospital and have to go thru so much .  She was tired, it was time.   I couldn’t put her thru all that.   

Saying goodbye was the hardest thing we ever did.  Our tears are unstoppable.  The Doctor was so nice, he let me hold her while he gave her the final shot.  She was in discomfort when she went to sleep,  I wish she could have went more peacably,  she was distressed.  I hate that.  She was looking at me wondering what was going on.  It happened so fast and now she’s in my memory in my mind and in my heart.  

No more words!  Words aren’t enough. Just wanted to let everyone know what happened!  We are devestated and sad and don’t know how we’re going to get along with out our Rosie Girl!.  We loved her so very much.  There won’t ever be another dog that could  replace her.  She had such a special personality. 
Love from you Mommy and Daddy 

These words are to Rosie With Love! 

 Our last photo with our Rosie Girl! 

Rosie On Sunday Her Last Good Photo!