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Rosie Went to Sleep 9/22/10

Filed under: Uncategorized — rosiesmom at 11:24 am on Friday, September 24, 2010


Dear Friends:  I don’t have the power to write much today.  It was a bad week.  Monday we took her.  They asked us to leave her for Cat Scan and xrays.  And A Core Biopsy to discover what this lump was all about.  We hated to leave her but we wanted to save her the 2 hour trip back and forth.  She stayed there overnight.  That would have been her last good night.  I hate that she spent it alone there and not with us.  Tuesday they did the test.  I went to pick her up to take her home.  They discovered she had Hermangeosarcoma (spelling?)  a Bleeding type of Cancer tumor on her chest that had engulfed I think 1 or 2 of the small chest bones.  It was on the surface and bleeding inside the tumor.  It was growing as her chest was getting bigger weekly.  They biopsied it to find out this information. Normally a biopsy would stop bleeding and heal.  Her’s continued to bleed as it turned out to be this bad type of cancer that saps up all the platelets in the blood and makes the blood so thin it won’t cougulate and so we took her home not knowing she was bleeding inside.  

Tuesday night she was tired, didn’t realize what was going on.  I thought she was just tired from everything and she’d be okay.  They warned me her chest would be a little black and blue from test,  but it turned bright bloody red her skin on her chest and tummy.  It was filling up with blood this tumor bleed inside her all night.  She was not feeling good.  I immediately called the Hospital and we rushed her up there longest 2 hour trip in our life.  We thought we were going to loose her in the car.  She made it and they took her into emergency right away.  The doctors could not do anything.  The  tumor was inoperable and the blood was not drainable as it was layered and absorbed into muscle and skin inside.  She was in some pain and discomfort and it would increase.  We had no choice but to let her go!  Let her sleep   I can’t believe in such a short time we had to say good bye.  It didn’t seem real, it seemed like a nightmare come to life.!  

They were great at the Vet Hospital, however I can’t stop beating myself up over why I submitted her to the tests that ultimately accelerated her  condition.   The cancer was expanding by itself and by next week or days, it would have been increasingly difficult for her.  There was nothing that could be done.  Operation would have taken the cancer out but they said she would not be able to walk as they’d have to remove the bones that support her one leg!  She’d have to have chemo again.  All the treatments they said she may never leave the Hospital and have to go thru so much .  She was tired, it was time.   I couldn’t put her thru all that.   

Saying goodbye was the hardest thing we ever did.  Our tears are unstoppable.  The Doctor was so nice, he let me hold her while he gave her the final shot.  She was in discomfort when she went to sleep,  I wish she could have went more peacably,  she was distressed.  I hate that.  She was looking at me wondering what was going on.  It happened so fast and now she’s in my memory in my mind and in my heart.  

No more words!  Words aren’t enough. Just wanted to let everyone know what happened!  We are devestated and sad and don’t know how we’re going to get along with out our Rosie Girl!.  We loved her so very much.  There won’t ever be another dog that could  replace her.  She had such a special personality. 
Love from you Mommy and Daddy 

These words are to Rosie With Love! 

 Our last photo with our Rosie Girl! 

Rosie On Sunday Her Last Good Photo!




September 24, 2010 @ 11:44 am   

Oh beautiful Rosie, please know that your people did everything they could to give you the best possible life. Their final act of kindness to release you from your broken body was courageous and only done out of love for all you gave them. May you rest in peace and run free at the bridge. Peace.



September 24, 2010 @ 12:50 pm   

Dear Rosie’s Pawrents,
I am so sorry to hear of your beautiful Rosie.

Please know you did everything right. Hemangiosarcoma is so brutal and so sudden. I lost my Rugby to it last year. I didn’t get any warning from him as the tumor grew on his heart for a couple of months and then one morning, he just collapsed and bled out into his heart sac before anyone could diagnose him while running tests. I left him and wasn’t even there when he arrested. It was a shock.

I would have done exactly what you did. Be very thankful you were able to hold her in your arms one last time. I promise you that she may have been uncomfortable from the hemangio but she would have been more stressed without you.

I am just so sorry for you. My heart hurts thinking about what you went through. But love always hurts when letting it go. The following months are going to be very difficult, so please do not hesitate to come to the forums and talk. You can share all of your wonderful memories of Rosie with us!

My deepest condolences,
Comet’s mom



September 24, 2010 @ 12:57 pm   

My heart breaks for you, and the tears are flowing as I type this. I can’t tell you how sorry we are that this happened, nobody should ever have to experience such sadness.

Please, please take comfort in knowing that you did everything humanly pawsible for her, and she knows that. The beauty of Dog is the forgiveness in their souls and the love in their hearts. Let her sweet spirit wrap itself around your soul, and never forget that you were are great pawrent to her.

We are so sorry, we know this is so hard. If you want to talk we are here for you OK?

May Rosie and Spirit Jerry meet and play into eternity.

Jerry’s Mom, Rene



September 24, 2010 @ 1:51 pm   

to go through all of this sounds unbearable. you gave her the final gift, but that is of little comfort now, we know. hopefully, with much time, the happy memories will start to peek through your sadness. our thoughts are with you and with angel rosie. love never ends.

charon & gayle


   Mackenzie's Mom

September 24, 2010 @ 2:46 pm   

Oh I’m so sorry to read this. I’ve been thinking of you and was going to send you an email to see how Rosie was doing. My heart is completely breaking for you…I know how special Rosie is to you and I know you loved her more than life itself. I’m at a loss for words right now – I am grieving with you. So so sorry…
Sending you lots and lots of golden hugs.
Kami (Mackenzie’s Mom)



September 24, 2010 @ 4:12 pm   

I don’t know what to say except that we are sorry and our hearts are breaking for you. Please don’t beat yourself up about the end. You did everything you possible could with the information you had. That is all you can ever do. If you keep thinking about why you did or didn’t do a certain treatment, you will drive yourself nuts, which isn’t fair to anybody. Your love for Rosie is obvious, and she clearly loved you as well. Our thoughts and prayers are with you at this difficult time.


   Carmen (Catie's Mom)

September 24, 2010 @ 5:26 pm   

Aw Rosie. This is heartbreaking. I am so sorry.I know you are inconsolable right now in your grief and words are simply not enough. Rosie was much loved and loved you in return. So utterly utterly sorry.



September 25, 2010 @ 9:00 am   

I’m so sorry to read this. You did everything you could, and you did everything out of so much love for your dear girl. We’re sending hugs across the miles…
Holly, Zuzu and Susan



September 25, 2010 @ 5:25 pm   

Rosie’s family

I am so sorry for your loss. And for the ways things unfolded, so quickly, so hard and having to travel such a distance for treatment. Unfortunately we can’t control whether our loves ones pass peacefully, in some or in a lot of discomfort.

But you were there for her at the time, which is what mattered to her in her discomfort.

Please don’t question what you did or did not do – you really did everything you could and with good reason.



September 26, 2010 @ 10:10 pm   

I’m soooo sorry for your loss of your sweet Rosie. You did everything you could for your girl….
Hugs to you in your recovery from loosing such a beautiful girl.

Tracy & Maggie

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